"Yleisöks en jäänyt seisomaan. Vaikka lähdin, jatkoit aina vaan. Kuulin vielä kauan äänesi, se pahvinaamarille jutteli."

I´ve always felt like I was somehow...wrong. That I should be something else than I am. I´m more quiet and shy than many others so I should be more social and open. I should talk more. I should talk more and LOUDER.
I´m forgettable. I should be braver. I should drink more so I would became more open. It´s wrong that I don´t like to party. I´m uptight if I don´t like to watch porn. I should be more free.
I feel like I´m always the second best. The second best option. Because someone else is more something. I recently read about this writer who said she has always been The quiet girl of the class. The lonely wolf. She thought that it´s sad that not once in school did the teachers say "it´s ok".

What if I´m right and everyone else is wrong?